Trying to keep this going

Okay a real post that isn't just pictures. It may be short and sweet but I have to start somewhere again right?

So I'm finally off all of my meds (wellbutrin and lexapro) and done with all the side effects that were SO ANNOYING. I think the withdrawal side effects were worse that any of the depression or anxiety that I have ever had. I seriously thought I was going a little bit crazier than I already was. But after researching a bit online I found that all of the symptoms I had, were all related to going off my meds.

This is a bit of a new and different world for me right now. I've been on some kind of meds since my 2nd child was born. I had post-partum depression with a some anxiety added on top just for fun. So that is almost 10 years on mood altering medication. To say I was scared to let go of that stability is an understatement. But when life changes things for you and you aren't able to afford the drugs or the insurance that have kept you sane, you just sort of take the leap and see what happens.

Now I did research a lot before I just went off of everything. I learned how to properly wean  myself off the said drugs. Even with weaning myself off very very slowly, I still got hammered with so many withdrawal symptoms it wasn't even funny. For two months I felt like a zombie. I thought I was never going to feel like a real human again.  But here we are a little over 2 months later and I feel "normal" or at least normal for me. And its nice. I am taking St. Johns wart with a little b6 thrown in just to help out a little bit. I have also changed my diet (to a paleo style diet) and am exercising at least 3-5 days a week.

I am not knocking anyone taking medication to help their depression or anxiety. Those medications saved my life. But I think I am finally ready to see if I can do this without any additional help. If I find that I can't, I will go back to my dr and see what we can come up with. But for right now I am enjoying this life.